Elaborate Chaos

I know life is exactly as I’ve made it. Every day, day in and day out, the choices I make are of my own accord and the outcome is all mine to bask in. This is not something I have always held at the forefront of my consciousness. Most of my life I was asleep, just going through the motions, doing what I felt when I felt it, proceeding in a way I thought was right based off of my life experiences and exposure. But, now that I am awake, what do I do? The choices I made while I was asleep, are the reality in which I live in today. Not to say my life isn’t enjoyable, because it is. I have a family who loves me and me them and a job that sustains my family and our way of life. But in the
elaborate world we live in, I feel a nagging, something that is missing from within me. I can’t explain it, like I am destined for something else, I don’t want to say destined for more, because sometimes, less is more. I am so very confused, confused in what to do and where to go. A feeling of incompleteness nags at me and draws my attention, but never to the solution. I have no idea where this life is heading or how to know once I get there. There is where part of the problem is. I know that the need to remain in the present is the way to the future. In this day and age, everything we do is centered on either our future or our past. I do not dwell in the past. I dwell somewhere between the present and the future. I don’t what to do in my present to reach the future I want, and if I am not supposed to think about the future, how do I know the future I want? It is all very perplexing and sometimes maddening. Any advice to help guide me through this elaborate dream called life is more than welcome. I feel stagnate and like nothing I do will can change the course that was set forth in me in my absence of mind.

 

Thank you for listening.

Have an awesome day and an awesome life! One love.

-Michelle

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